The Cross of Our Lord Jesus Christ

by T. Austin-Sparks

Chapter 4 - The Cross and the Ministry of the Unveiled Face

Thy servant heareth... be not silent, Lord. "Wait my soul upon Thee for the quickening word. Fill me with the knowledge of Thy glorious will. All Thine own good pleasure in Thy child fulfil..." Lord this we make our individual prayer. No words could better express our desire at this time so we say again: speak, Thy servant heareth. And when Thou dost speak, give us the enlarged heart and the quickened faith to run in the way of Thy commandment, for Thy Name's sake, amen.

We are well launched into this matter of the place and meaning of the Cross of our Lord Jesus Christ as it is in these various letters of the New Testament. There's a wonderful thing about these letters and their message - it is that although they were just the immediate outgoing of the heart of an apostle to companies of the Lord's people here and there, in relation to some existing situation and need, under the Holy Spirit's sovereign government, and all unbeknown to the writer, the apostle, they were documents for the whole dispensation; as much for us as for those to whom they were written.

The apostle did not know that he was writing the Bible. He did not realize that people down through thousands of years would be studying every word that he put down, and every syllable that he put down, and would be having their lives affected one way or another throughout all the centuries, and the effects and fruit to appear in the coming eternity. He had no idea of that, but the Holy Spirit did. And we are found here, a little company, in that sovereign ordering in relation to these writings, these personal letters of a shepherd apostle concerned for the sheep.

Another thing which we have already indicated, which is quite wonderful, is how that same sovereign Spirit of God governed and controlled the arrangement of these letters. Altogether out of chronological order the Holy Spirit saw to it that this one came first, and that one came second, and that one came third, and that one came fourth - in a precise spiritual order - a sequence of wonderful progressiveness in the spiritual life. We have noted that.

We have considered the place of the Cross in the letter to the Romans, and how foundational it all is there and all-inclusive of what follows throughout the New Testament. And then in such wonderful wisdom and understanding, the Holy Spirit saw to it that the first letter to the Corinthians came next, beginning the break up of the inclusive foundation of the Cross in Romans, to apply it. And everybody of us here surely has seen that this is the next thing. The Cross and the two humanities is something that has got to be settled before you can get any further. Everything waits upon the recognition and the response and reaction to this very wonderful thing as the Corinthians (in their condition, perhaps at least six years after the apostle went to them) drew out this letter and in it revealed for all time that there can be and often are, as there was in Corinth, two kinds of Christians.

Two Kinds of Christians

Christians in two categories: the soulical Christians called the natural, and the spiritual Christians. And they are in two very definitely different categories as this letter shows. We won't read again to see what the one class is and what the other class is, they are so clearly and definitely defined. The one is shown through necessity, the application of the Cross right into the very heart of Christians. Yes, right into the history of those who are the Lord's.

The Cross is called for in a very serious and solemn way in many, many Christians who, like these Corinthians, were Christians, God only knows how they needed the work of the Cross to change them from the one kind of Christian to another, from the one category to the other, from the natural or the merely soulical (which is, in another word, the wholly self kind of Christian) into the spiritual - men and women of the Spirit.

Now, I'm not staying again to emphasize that distinction. It's here and that is the first practical application of the Cross after it's inclusive meaning has been set forth. It's being broken down now, and this, within the whole circle of the meaning of the Cross, this is the first thing that has got to be settled. We can't go on until that is settled.

We're coming this evening to the great transition from the first letter to the second. And what a transition it is. It's really a progression as well as a transition. That is, it's not only a changeover on the same level, it is the development of the new level or kind of Christian. A wonderful transition or passing over, a wonderful progression in the spiritual situation and what is now possible.

Now let me say again, and I trust that you are seeking to take very careful heart notice of what we are saying, because I want to say once more to you dear friends: I am not here just to give you more doctrine, and teaching, and information. If God does not carry these things into our being and create a real issue in us, we've failed - this conference or convocation has failed and we would never want to have another one. It's very vital that this thing should be ploughed right deep down into us to have its effect.

So I repeat that this difference, this distinction, which is brought out so clearly and fully in the first letter and I would ask that you go back to your room and read that letter again in the light of what we have pointed out and read it carefully, not only verse by verse, but sentence by sentence, and you will see how true it is that we have, before we can move on, we have to have a settlement about this matter of the distinction that is brought to light in letter number one to the Corinthians. There's got to be a settlement with us about this: a recognition of the fact that there are two kinds of Christians possible. One kind: a purely soulical type of Christian; they are a fact. And another type: a truly Holy Spirit kind of Christian. Very distinct are these kinds. And the fact of that difference has got first of all to be faced, settled, accepted, before we can go any further.

The Lord won't get us any further until we've recognized it as a fact revealed in the Word of God that you can be what Paul calls carnal or spiritual; natural, soulical, or people of the Spirit. Of course we could spend a lot of time on that, but we have tried just to touch on it, to indicate what is meant by it.

No, let me pause, may I pause to just add this word. A truly spiritual person (that is, a person who is governed and led by the Holy Spirit, who lives in the Spirit) is one who brings everything to the Lord to ask His mind about it. Even your dress and anything else about your personal presence - your manner, your behaviour, your talk, or your silence - a great deal of soulishness is in just chatter, frittering away the values of eternal meanings by just standing around those that talk. You know the Cross needs very really to be planted right into the tongue of many Christians. And not mischievous tongues essentially, not evil tongues essentially, but just tongues that are not controlled by the Holy Spirit. The power of the Spirit to be quiet and silent when it's right to do so. That's what I mean.

You don't believe in the inspiration of scripture do you? Do you? Oh, wait a minute: "Let the women adorn themselves in modest apparel." Do you believe in the inspiration of scripture? Look at the vast number of our Christian girls who dress in a shameful way, just attracting attention to themselves, making themselves, just, you know, the [soul impact] that's in sensuality; Christian girls. "Dress in modest apparel...". You know, I could say a lot about all that sort of thing, a spiritual person will go to the Lord about it. These are such practical matters. [To each] in dress, "Lord, is this glorifying to Thee?" The Holy Spirit is able just to put His finger upon things like that, all sorts of things, a thousand and one things, and make us aware there's something not quite right in this or that. We're a little bit uncomfortable about something, we don't know what it is, and then we go to the Lord. What is it? It's just that.

I remember, many years ago now, a dear woman came to us. She was from a Roman Catholic background, she was in a very affluent position in a large business house in London as the chief buyer. She cut her hair short and wore an abundance of decorations and, you know, all the rest, and her dress. She came to us, she was troubled about her spiritual well-being. She stayed in our guest house. No one said anything; she was in such contrast to the simplicity and modesty, and no one said a word. She stayed on, went to her business and came back each day. Presently we noticed that she was letting her hair grow; it looked not too good, you know, to begin with! And then we noticed that some of these earrings were missing, and other changes were taking place. Not so many months passed before she was altogether changed. Mark you, not shoddy, not careless, but nice; really nice, good in dress and appearance. Then was the time to say, "What made you change your dress? Why did you do those things?" She said, "The Lord just spoke to me about it." She said, "If anybody of you had ever mentioned that, I would have walked out and never come back again! The Lord spoke to my heart."

She became a servant of the Lord, she's now in India serving the Lord, she's been there many years, but she was staying before that. She's serving the Lord in India, some here know her; moving on in years now, in her eighties. But it was something, a product of a walk with the Lord in the spirit. Do you understand what I mean by a spiritual person? Who does not offend the Spirit of God. Well, have I said too much? I told you last night that you were going to be hurt, well, if it hurts, I trust it's the Holy Spirit and you will say, "Go on, Lord, go on, don't You spare anything".

Well now, I've indicated in that way so briefly and imperfectly, what we were talking about: the difference between a soulical (and that is not necessarily an unsaved person, but a soulical Christian) and a really spiritual person. And until that difference is recognized, seen, and accepted and we have had a transaction with the Lord about it and said to the Lord, "Now Lord, if that's the truth - it's in the Word and I believe it must be true, I commit myself to You to be made a truly spiritual child of God in all that that means." You've got to do that and then you can pass into the second letter to the Corinthians.

You see, the Cross comes in there doesn't it? The Cross comes in. My, yes, it's the Cross indeed when it touches us in these matters, very practical matters. It's the Cross. That is the transition as a fact. Now we have to go on to consider the nature of the transition and its necessity. And the second letter to the Corinthians is occupied with what? It is the ministry of the Lord's people.

The Ministry of the Lord's People

The whole letter is occupied with this matter of the Lord's people in ministry. I'm going to stop to define that, but I want you to notice this to begin with, that while the apostle has more to say about himself personally in this letter than in any other letter that he wrote, (you know more of Paul after you've read this letter than you would ever know by reading all his other letters put together; it's the most autobiographical of his writings). It is as though he has so much to say about himself he is saying it, in the first place, about himself as the Lord's servant. As the Lord's servant and in the second place he is transmitting all this to the church at Corinth. And in effect he is saying, "What is true of me as the Lord's servant has got to become true of you. Not special people amongst you, but you as a church." That is, each individual making up the church in Corinth, for this ministry is corporate ministry, it is not just individual. It's corporate ministry. And so he is speaking here about the ministry of the Church in its localities which, of course, you can at once mentally make objective and say well, a group of people. No; you, me. This applies as much to us as to the whole Church. It comes down to the individual.

There cannot be a church without the individual. It demands all the individuals to make up the Body - the members to make up the Body. So, I must underline this, that you'll get very clear that what is here about ministry is shown by this letter to apply not only to Paul, though to him in the first place, but to every member of the church at Corinth and that means to every member of the Church down through the ages into this very hall tonight.

It's the ministry that is before us. Well, first of all, what is the ministry?

What is the Ministry?

Could you answer that question? "Well, it's getting a Bible, studying it, getting to know something about it, putting it under your arm and off you go to preach". Is that the ministry? Is it putting on a certain kind of collar and a tie, attire, and now you're a minister; that's the ministry?

One of the most pathetically, pathetically tragicomedies that I have ever met; tragedy, yes, to me comical it was also. Some years ago I knew a man who for thirty years had been ministering the word of God, here, there, all over the place. And he had been the leader of what was called the "spiritual clinic" in conferences. Oh, he was fully occupied with this. All his time was given to this. And then one day I went to a convention and I saw this dear man coming toward me down the road. And he made his way to me, and put out his hand and said, "You see, brother? I'm now in the ministry!" - he was wearing a clerical collar. "I'm now in the ministry." See what I mean? I say, "Tragedy of tragedies!" And, in a certain sense, comedy of comedies. That's not the ministry. That's a false conception of the ministry.

Forgive me, I don't mean to draw laughs or make things humorous. It's too sad to have these false conceptions and notions of what the ministry is. If you were asked now to put down on a slip of paper your definition of the ministry, what would you say? Now, here you have the great New Testament document as it has turned out to be, on the ministry of the Church and its members, which comprises us all. What does it reveal to be the ministry? What is it? It is just and only this, but this definitely: the ministration of Christ to other people. The ministration of Christ! Bringing Christ into view, not mentally, but livingly and giving Christ - so that where you are and where you have been, something of Christ is left behind. Something of Christ is left behind; they do not know mentally something more about Christ, but they have felt the presence of Christ. They have realized Christ by your presence.

Now, I'm going to show that in a minute in this letter, but that's the ministry, if there is anything at all in this letter that speaks of ministry, it is just that people who come into contact with us and with whom we come into contact, come into contact with Christ. And that as we go on through life - what poor creatures we are and Paul takes account of that concerning himself - yet, somehow or other, we are leaving a trail behind us of the influence, the "sweet savour" as Paul called it, of Christ. The sweet savour of Christ. The people will at last, who have known us thus, will just have to say "Well, yes, plenty of human faults, if you like, but there's something of Christ I've come into because of that woman - that man."

That's very testing, isn't it? Very challenging. It wants spiritual people to be like that, but that is the ministry! Get clear out of your mind all these other ideas: professionalism in ministry, ministerialism, and all the rest of churchianity and ecclesiasticism. The whole lot! Get rid of it and come right down to this: my presence has to be a ministry of Christ in this world, and if people are in real spiritual need, I have something to minister to their need; something of Christ. Christ by the Spirit is ministered through me.

That sounds very simple, doesn't it? It upsets a lot of our high-flown ideas about the ministry, but it's very practical, very real. That is the ministry in this letter. You see, the apostle gives us some illustrations of this in the letter. I wish you'd all read it before you came here this evening so that it was all fresh in your mind, because we have only an hour. (By the way then, read the letter to the Galatians before tomorrow night.) But here the apostle gives us some illustrations of the meaning of the ministry in the terms which I have used.

First of all, he takes up this wonderful matter of Moses coming down from the mountain with the table of stone of the law, and the glory of God being on his face. He came down with glory on his face - his face was shining with the glory of God. He came down and as he moved toward the camp, that glory on his face was so strong that the people could not bear to look. When he went in to read the law, the people could not dare to look because of the glory and it was necessary for Moses to put a veil over his face when he read the law of the testimony.

A face full of glory, but the people unable... unable to live in the good of it and live by the power of it, and to appreciate it, and to enjoy it, and for it to abide with them by reason of the lack of spiritual capacity. It says, "They could not look on his face." They could not... they could not. They hadn't the capacity required for looking at the glory of God.

Now, you know the rest of the story. Paul outlines it and brings it over into this dispensation and he says, "When you shall turn to the Lord, the Lord Jesus, the veil is taken away." And then he says this wonderful thing, this marvellous thing upon which, dear friends, you can dwell for the rest of your life, without any exaggeration, "God, Who said: Let Light shine..." Let light shine! The great fiat at the beginning, "Let there be Light..." "God Who said: Let light be, hath shined into our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ." And there's no veil! We have now spiritual capacity! We're spiritual people! We have the Holy Spirit! The face of Jesus Christ holds the revelation of the glory of God. My, what a revelation of the glory of God the face of Jesus is! That word "face" of course, is only symbolism.

You know, you know by a person's face a good deal about the person, don't you? A great deal about the person... the face is supposed to be the index of the person, the character and the content of their life. That's how it's used here. There is in Jesus Christ an unveiled revelation of the Father and that is shined into our hearts. Shined into our hearts! It is not an objective thing - a sun, or aura, or halo outside. It's come into our hearts! In other words, by the blessed Holy Spirit we have come to see the Lord Jesus in the spirit, to appreciate the wonder of God in Jesus Christ! It's shined into our hearts! And the apostle is saying by implication, "If that Light of God's glory came upon the face of Moses and was seen by all the people, in the same way, what has shined into our hearts ought to be seen by people." You cannot have the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God shining in your hearts without people knowing something about it. That's the ministry!

And we could dwell a great deal upon that part of the letter about the veil and so on. There's a lot more to do with it, but Paul is saying, "That's the ministry!" It's the ministry of the glory of Christ revealed in our hearts.

And then he uses another illustration, which has already been mentioned in this conference: the Living Epistles. He's moved into another realm. He's perhaps moved into the realm of what is called the Ostraca - the broken pieces of earthenware which were cast out of every home in what you call, the... what is it, the place where you put your rubbish? We call it the dustbin, you call it the, well, yes - rubbish tin. They were thrown out there. On these pieces of earthenware messages were written and sent like letters. That's how they communicated their messages and their information. They were taken many, many miles.

If a boy was in the army, the Roman army far, far away, his letter wasn't a nice thing like your air letters, you know. His was a bit of pottery with a message written on it for father or mother. And when these were received and the message was taken, the pottery was broken, and it was thrown outside. It was called the Ostraca, that's where we get our word "ostracism" from - something thrown out.

Now Paul's taken that up and he is translating it into the life of the believer in the matter of ministry. Not referring, as a side-line, he's getting his metaphors a bit mixed up, he usually does, Paul, he's too much in a hurry to sort things out to put them all in proper order. He refers again to Moses, tables of stone, pen of iron.... No, not on tables of stone, or the pen of iron, but on tables which are hearts of flesh, written upon by the Spirit of the Living God, the finger of God, from the heart. And you become a living letter! You will personally say, "We have this Treasure in earthen vessels." See? Here you have your earthen vessel with a message written on it. We are earthen vessels and in us has been written by the finger of God the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ, with the effect: we are living epistles read and known of all men! And what do these "documents" say? What do these human vessels say? These vessels of fragile clay, what are they saying? They're making known the glory of God in Jesus Christ! We are that, that's the ministry!

I say again, it's challenging, it's testing. But that is the ministry according to this letter. He illustrates, you see, the ministry - the living letters. And there's a transition having taken place, first of all a transition from the outward - tables of stone, written with a pen, outward - to the inward: in the heart, hearts of flesh. This ministry is something inside now first, not objective. It's not your library. It's not your collection of commentaries, to pull them down and make [a tome], it's what the Holy Spirit is saying to you in your heart about the Lord Jesus. These things may be useful afterward, but first of all, what is the Lord saying inside of me? What is the burden (to use the prophetic language) what is the burden of the word of the Lord in my heart? In my heart... "Thy word is like a fire in my bones", said the prophet.

It's a transition from the outward to the inward - that's the ministry. What you've got inside - that makes the ministry. From the outward to the inward; from the letter to the Spirit, and the apostle draws that contrast, "The letter killeth, the Spirit maketh alive". From the letter (that is, the mere verbiage of truth, even though it be Christian truth) to the spiritual meaning and interpretation and power of that truth; the livingness of that thing. Not the dead letter but the livingness of it, in us. That is the ministry. Transition from death then (the letter killeth) unto Life!

It all amounts to this, to use Paul's own words here and elsewhere: the inward revelation by the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ, as the manifestation of God the Father. I'm not saying apart from the Scriptures, or independently of the Scriptures, or as a substitute for the Scriptures. I have had in my life of ministry very sad instances of people (I don't know why it is, it's always been women, but that can be left aside) coming to me and say, "The Lord has shown me so and so...". And I have said, "But that so-and-so is not according to the Scripture; that's contrary". "No, that doesn't matter. That doesn't matter. The Lord has shown it to me." And you're not surprised that there's confusion in a life. No, through the Scriptures... oh, keep living the Word. Live in the Word. Let the Word of God dwell in you richly, and that in all wisdom and spiritual understanding. It is, dear friends, through the Word the Holy Spirit revealeth.

Some of us know quite well what it is to have a fairly large, comprehensive knowledge of the contents of the Bible so that we could take a blackboard and outline any book of the Bible at any given moment and never to have seen in the way that has completely revolutionized our lives what that means. What that means... that's a very different thing, isn't it? What it means from just what it says; you understand that? But it is the Holy Spirit through the Word revealing Christ within. That is the ministry of the Church and that is the ministry.

Well now, the transition, the nature of the transition.

The Cost of the Transition

It is here, of course that the Cross comes in because such a life, such a life of testimony, such a life of influence, such a life of ministering Christ, such a ministry, this kind of ministry is a very costly thing. Don't make any mistake about it, and we should dwell long and earnestly upon this fact: the cost of such a ministry. Ministry, as it is called, is not always a costly thing to those who carry it out; it's mechanical. Mechanical. No, but this kind of ministry is very costly, and as I say, that is where the Cross comes in.

Now, isn't it rather impressive, it takes nothing away, but is rather impressive, that in this second letter to the Corinthians the Cross is not mentioned once by name. And yet there is no letter in the New Testament where the Cross is more implicit, or as implicit. Everywhere the Cross is implied, or powerfully implied. And so you find that the outstanding words in this letter are: the sufferings of Christ. "The afflictions of Christ, which abound to us." You can look that up. I believe you'll find that some nine times the sufferings and the afflictions of Christ are referred to in this letter. It's only another way, isn't it, of speaking of the Cross... the Cross in the life of the servant, and the service of the Lord. And if the apostle Paul is keeping himself in a right and proper sense in view in relation to service, what a lot he says in this letter about his sufferings. My, you haven't perhaps studied it, what this dear man had to go through. He gives us later a catalogue of the outward adversities: shipwrecks and the privations and the nakedness and the perils on sea and on land - robbers and all that kind of thing. Well, that's pretty hard.

But there's another list that you collect from this letter to which he refers, but not completely, you have to arrive at it by deduction. And the strange thing is that it came to him from Corinth. The things that these dear believers, who owed everything spiritually to him, the things that they said about him! First of all, there was a clique, or two or three cliques in Corinth which wouldn't have Paul. They said, "We are of Apollos" or "I am of Apollos" and "I am of Cephas", and another superior clique: "I am of Christ", meaning "We are not of Paul." Two or three sections who were not having Paul. Not having Paul. And then the things they said about him, they said his personal presence is despicable. I suppose referring to his body, his physical appearance, the scars and marks of his sufferings and of his physical affliction. They said, "His personal presence is despicable. His letters are very bold, but his personal presence is despicable. He's an autocrat! He is turning everything to his own interest, trying to get a following for himself. He's even using the funds for his personal ends. And..." Well, shall we go on? All of these things are in this letter, you know, they're all there. The man, discredited by those who owed him so much, despised, rejected, humiliated, but he says, "The more I love you the less I be loved by you."

This letter is the cry, you might say the sob of a broken heart, because of what he met - not from the world alone, he could get on with that, go through with that - but from inside... false brethren, false friends, treacherous and disloyal, and many other unkind things. And these are all called the sufferings of Christ... the afflictions of Christ, which come upon us. And then that one outstanding incident and he said, "I would have you know, the things that befell me, I was pressed beyond my measure of endurance. I had the sentence of death... the sentence, that it was death." Pressed out of measure, and the sentence of death.

And one more thing: the thorn in his flesh which did not come either from the world or from Christians; something that the Lord allowed. "There was given me a stake." Thorn is not the word - it's not big enough! "A stake in my flesh! A messenger of satan to buffet me, for which thing I sought the Lord thrice that He would remove it." Can you visualize it? A man going, "Oh, Lord, can You not be pleased to relieve me of this thing?" Begging the Lord - and no answer. Back again, "Lord, Lord, do, do something about this thing! Take it away. It does make the going so hard, so difficult... Take it away, Lord!" And no answer. Third time, and we see our Lord in Gethsemane three times, "If it be possible..." the sufferings of Christ, "If it be possible, let this cup pass from Me." And the third time... and then the Lord answered. And how did He answer? "No. No. My grace is sufficient for thee. My strength is made perfect in weakness." And the apostle's response: "Most gladly, therefore, will I suffer." Afflictions, the afflictions of Christ.

Now, have I said enough? I haven't said all, mark you, to show that a ministry like this that is being set forth here, is a costly ministry. And suffering is inevitable. But why? Why? God is more concerned with quality than with quantity.

God is supremely concerned with the essential, the intrinsic value; not the broad sweep and straight over of the superficial, but the deep. The real. The thing that is going to reproduce because of its intrinsic value; that when this man has gone, what God is doing in him will last through two thousand years at least, and grow and grow and grow till it fills the whole world. Through the sufferings of this man!

It's a costly ministry this kind of ministry, have I put you off the ministry? Well, it depends entirely upon what our hearts are set upon, dear friends, whether we just want to be ships that pass in the night and speak to each other in passing and then disappear forever out of sight. If we want to be just some butterfly flitting across the world without any vital impact, effect, or influence. If you want to be like that, is that what you want to be? Come and gone and nothing very much to show for it when you're gone? Or do we really in our hearts want it to be like this - something that will live on and grow and grow when we are gone. When we're gone... that's the most testing thing, you know, for anybody; to live for a time to come when you'll not be here to know about it. I wonder... maybe he does know - I don't know those secrets of what's known when you're gone in the presence of the Lord, but I sometimes wonder if they don't know, if Paul was to come back here in this world today and see all the world full of books written about his letters and all the churches and Christians, whether they be spiritual or otherwise, who are just reading him and studying him and talking of Paul - I wonder what he would say?

I was the minister of a church in north London once and the name of that church was the name of a well-known Doctor of Divinity of by-gone days and they built this church as a memorial to him and the great Doctor Parker, have you heard of him? Minister of the City Temple of London, he came to the funeral of this man, to take the funeral service. And there was something written about the great man who'd gone to the Lord, something very, very congratulatory. Yes, lots of wonderful things said in this about the man who'd gone, and Doctor Parker, in his way, looked and he said, "I wonder if Doctor Raleigh" that was the name of the man for whom the church was built as a memorial, "I wonder if Doctor Raleigh were to come back here today if he would recognize himself! And I wonder if he would agree that people thought of him like that."

Well, you know, it's the afterward very largely that's going to tell what the value of our ministry, our life here has been. So, the apostle has something to say about that, "We have this treasure in vessels of fragile clay. Our outward man is perishing", and so on. The test: the eternal values. Perhaps in a short lifetime or a full lifetime, at most an altogether inadequate thing, so far as we are concerned... poor vessels of fragile clay. And if you've ever said to the Lord as I have many times, "Lord, You've got a poor piece of clay here. A very poor piece of clay, I don't know why ever You chose it." Yes, and yet, and yet, the great apostle Paul would call himself a poor piece of clay, a vessel of fragile clay, "That the exceeding greatness of the power might be of God and not of ourselves". And he goes on with his catalogue of troubles... "We are persecuted, we are... we are... we are, but!" The intrinsic value - the fruit of suffering. The fruit of suffering! Well, I'm not mincing matters, as we say. I'm not hiding from you. It depends on what kind of ministry. And surely you know friends, if you have any experience at all, you know that it's the people who have helped you most, most deeply in your spiritual life, have been people who've gone through the fires, who have come to know the Lord in suffering. Isn't that true? And you know quite well the people who haven't suffered can't do any good for you, can't help you! You know that. You have to say, "My, they haven't been through suffering yet, and they can't help us." Isn't it true?

Well, here it is, here's the kind - what ministry is. What it is: its nature, its meaning, its value, its eternal worth, its spiritual character of Life to these, and the cost of it. The cost of it. I would not for anything depress you, I would not leave a cloud over your heart, God forbid, but I know this is true, and I believe that there are enough people here, if not all, enough people here who would really, really respond and say, "Lord, do make my life of some account, some eternal account. Lord, do, do, whatever you don't do, do this one thing: that when I've lived my life, leave spiritual and eternal values behind. That they may show themselves again in other lives. I'll not be here to see it, or know anything about it, but nevertheless, Lord, that is not the point. My pleasure, my gratification, my satisfaction is not the point; it's Yours, what You get." Are you, are you really committed to the Lord in that way? And would you, therefore, take up your Cross? That's of course the Gospel way of putting it: it's a figurative way. You don't get it like that after, the actual cross, but what it means you do get, taking up your Cross, denying yourself (your soul) and following Him.

I won't add more. I think you have enough to see that this is the ministry: the seeing of the Lord by the Holy Spirit's illumination in our hearts - and the spontaneous, the spontaneous effect of it. It's spontaneous! Oh, thank God for the spontaneity of this! You see, you don't have to struggle and strain for the ministry. I did that for years - having to get up the sermons and find the straw for the bricks and keep the thing going because I was paid a salary to be a "minister"! Oh, the agony of it all, until that great crisis of Romans 6 and the Cross! Since when, that strain, that kind of strain has gone out, it's spontaneous, it's an opened heaven! It's an opened heaven. It's spontaneous, living.

Well, is that enough? The Lord give us silent and serious exercise about this, for committal, so that when we've gone from this scene everything is not gone with us that we were here for. Shall we pray?

Lord, there may be that which has to be corrected or straightened out, or more clearly apprehended, but we have sought to convey to Thy people something of what Thou hast laid upon our hearts, and we can only commit the issues to Thee. Blessed Lord, make this night really eternally profitable... that there shall be intrinsic values from these lives. Oh, make us these living epistles, read and known of all men... make our hearts these tables upon which the Spirit of God writes the revelation of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. All that this figurative speech really means, make real in us we pray. And give us grace that we may triumph... triumph in the afflictions, triumph in the sufferings, triumph in the adversities, and know that they are the sufferings of Christ, the fellowship of His sufferings. And they must, therefore, be very profitable, very fruitful, if they are His. So be it. And now, let Thy hand be upon us as we leave this place, not wanting to quench anything that is really living and spiritual, nevertheless, do save us from in any way dissipating, dissipating what Thou, Lord, has tried to say. So be it, for Thy glory and praise and honour, forever and ever, amen.